Things have been going very well for quite awhile now and I have had no need to blog and vent my frustrations about my husband. In fact, I am seriously thinking of giving up this blog, no one reads it anyway. However I am still being ignored and still feel invisible. It is very easy to read my husband when I talk to him, his eyes are somewhere else and his mind is obviously on other things.
Tomorrow I will be leaving for a few days. Nothing special, just a weekend trip with our daughter and her family to the lake. I am sure I will enjoy it and need the rest, but what I would really like is for my husband to at least remember that I am going away. He has not even mentioned it since he told our daughter that he would leave work early tomorrow so he will be home before we leave - we'll see. He has not asked if I need anything, if I have money, or even a hint that he might miss me.
But anyway, I have always written funny, humorous stories and would really like to do that again. So maybe I will begin a new blog and leave this one for those occasional times when I just can't stand it any longer - even though no one responds. So I guess I write this blog because I am invisible to my husband to a group of readers that consider me invisible too.
Sorry, it is just a very blah day.
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I am sorry that you are having such a rough go
ReplyDeleteof it. . .I hope that you are leaning on Christ
with your situation. He is our Great Provider
and the need for love, attention & compassion
that we, as woman, need He can & will provide.
But, I also would like to add that I wanted to
respond for another reason. In the last paragraph you state that no one responds. . .I am sorry but I have twice & now this is the third. For whatever the reasons my second response you did not comment on.
With the feeling of being invisible to readers & lack of responses could it be due to the lack of consistency in the amount of blogging being done? I just know for myself I am more
apt to read those who have some sort of consistency. Just a thought.
It saddens me that I get this sense of you feeling sorry for yourself. . .not that you
may not have reasons & this being the only place you have to turn. . .I just know that
from my own experience it doesn't help. Only
thing that can help any situation is turning
to Christ. However from one pw to another I
know you need someone to hear & to care.
I am sorry if I am sounding harsh. . .it is
not my intent. I just wanted to offer some
unbiased thoughts on what I was reading.
If I have wounded or hurt you please forgive
me. . .I wouldn't want to do that to a sister
pw.
You are right - I do tend to feel sorry for myself and I also am not consistant with my replies. I am careful not to check my blog when anyone else is nearby because I do not want my family to read any of this. I also have been having some computer trouble and have just recently gotten that taken care of. And...like I have said things are going better for us now for the most part so I have not had the need to vent so much. That may change - hopefully it won't but I never know. I truly do appreciate your comments, they are like a lifeline to me. So maybe I will continue this blog for awhile at least and write some more upbeat things that hopefully will brighten my day. PS - I have turned this all over to God and am trusting He will correct our problems and hoping my patience will let me wait on His timing.
ReplyDeleteI am really glad to hear that it's going better. Also, just so that you know I
ReplyDeleteunderstand / get about wanting to keep this
personal & away from family. Will pray for
you this evening.- Kelly
Feeling very lonely these last few months. Went looking online for some encouragement. The encouragement I found was that I'm not alone. Looks like many PW are lonely. I was beginning to think I needed counseling to see why I was so unlikable. as pw's we all know the answer is in Christ but sometimes someone to say "how are you doing, can I pray for you" would be nice but I guess we will get that in heaven later. Praying for you
ReplyDeleteI stumbled on your blog today while looking for evidence of another human being who could relate to what I am feeling. Sometimes you just need to be heard-but who to tell? I know about feeling invisible next to your spouse. I don't like that I feel angry at times. Not to begrudge him anything, but it hurts when he is asked for interviews, photo shoots, etc, but no such invitations for me. The last picture I happened to be part of showed a great view of...my arm. Yes, really. This might sound childish, but it is where I am at right now. I am sure there is a life lesson in this somewhere, but as with all lessons, the learning is painful. Thanks for reading.
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